A Libra, stuck at a fork in the road

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I have a job which I like, but do not love.
Growing up I hated math.
Now that’s a big part of what I do all day.
My job is very solitary.
I am a people person.
Growing up I wanted to be a nurse, a vet. I am neither.
I like to help people, make them smile and make a difference.
I don’t feel that I am doing any of these things currently.
I have found a job that I know I’d be good at.
The job involves conducting fitness tests, and assessments, scheduling facility programs and staff, design, develop and deliver social/recreational programs to the elderly and disabled.
This I know would come with its own challenges.
I love to learn
This job requires continuous learning, to the well-being of others and myself,
My job  requires neither.
This job would require being on call, weekend and night work.
The girls are getting older and don’t need me around as much as they used to.
I work Monday to Friday 830 – 3 most days.
The pay would be around the same.
I would eventually have full benefits and job security.
I have neither now.
At the end of the day I think I would happier.
Now I come home most days feeling taken advantage of,underappreciated and defeated.
I have a funny feeling as I tap at the keys on my keyboard that I am answering my own questions…..

I am a Libra, who can be very indecisive weighing things back and forth back and forth while standing still in the middle unable to move.
I have been down the hall from deaths door twice and there is a great potential to be there again, I have learned to appreciate all that’s around me and to appreciate each day, to be happy, I find myself often unable to feel this way.
I treat others with kindness and respect and expect and deserve the same.
I need to make some changes in the best interests of my family and myself.
Life is too short and too precious to be wasted, it was not my time to go through that dark door not just once but twice, why am I wasting this gift?

≈Laugh loudly, Love generously, Care deeply, Speak kindly≈