I am so, so bored today….
“Bored of being bored because being bored is boring”
I have been a mother for 28 years.
#1 is 28
#2 is 23
#3 is 15
# 4 is 13
That equates to 79 years of parenting experience!!!
Plus another 36 months of pregnancy experience 😀
So why is it today I feel completely useless as a parent, I feel like I haven’t got a clue what I’m doing?
Am I giving them too much freedom, maybe they need more structure in their lives, do I enroll them in swimming, dance and piano? Take them to church? Ask that they do more around the house?
Am I teaching them what they need to know to succeed in life? Uggghhhhh!!!!
My self-confidence as a mother has disappeared, virtually non-existent.
I am questioning my parenting skills.
Could it be because I am living with two teenaged girls?
Is it because I have been so busy with work in the past and now that I’m home I’m realizing everything I haven’t been paying attention too?
I seem to be “debating” with #4 all the time, #3 doesn’t seem to want to spend any time with me. #2 has moved to Guelph which is 3 1/2 hours away, and I can never seem to “find” the time to go and visit. (she is not happy)
#1 and I haven’t spoken to or seen in quite some time and I miss him desperately.
#1 and #2 are functioning, happy young adults making their way through the world, they are good, kind, responsible people, #3 is one of the kindest, funniest kids around and #4 has fabulous debating skills and is a great friend to many, maybe I should stop questioning myself today!?
I guess maybe some days are just like that…
“Behind every great kid
Is a Mom
Who is pretty sure
She’s screwing it all up!”
Daily Prompt – 10 minutes. You and your keyboard (or smartphone. Or tablet. Or pen and paper). No pauses, no edits, no looking back: it’s free-write time!
It’s 11:22, I’ve got until 11:32 to type whatever I like with no pauses, not, edits and no looking back…..will be just babble I’m sure, I’m feeling a little pressure though, I’ve cleared my head and am hoping the words just come to me 😀
It’s 11:23 now, I always get hungry around 11:30 ish. I don’t often eat breakfast unless its on the weekend. I feel like having pasta for lunch.
Hmmm still 11:23. Time seems to be standing still 😦
Ok Ang choose something to write about…..
Did you know that there are 75 days until Christmas? Well that was a totally random thought wasn’t it? 😀
Hmmm….11:23! Think Think Think…..arrrggghhhhh
I think I’m overthinking this whole free write time. I tend to do that “overthink”. I’m a Libra and often am indecisive, so maybe that’s not it, I’m not overthinking at all, I’m just being indecisive..? I’m always “weighing” things just like the scales of my zodiac sign, back and forth, back and forth.
I’m team player at work and home, I avoid all types of conflicts, my nickname used to be “non confrontational Ang”, I hate conflict, I can’t imagine life without a life partner. I am sociable, graceful,*snicker,snicker*, polite and admire beauty in all its forms. What you see is what you get nothing phoney here folks, I love to use my brain, I am usually diplomatic and strive to have peace, harmony and equality in my life and those around me. Oh almost forgot, terribly indecisive.
Omgosh time is almost up!!!!!
Thank you for reading through my rambling this has been kind of fun!
Hope you have a happy Thursday!!