Angie – Chapter 46

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I have been unemployed for 2 1/2 weeks.

I had only been working for the “boss man” for 5 years.  My job became a part of me and I felt I was a part of it…I miss Bentley most of all “my” beautiful golden retriever.

My first week was spent nursing a cold and coming to grips that I was no longer employed.

My second week was spent coming to grips with not being employed and turning 46.

I’m 1/2 way through week 3 and guess what…..I’m doing ok. 😀

I’ve found that I have been going through a full spectrum of emotions, shock, sadness, denial, anger and today frustrated.  I’ve even considered smacking my head against the wall….just kidding.

I have taken the “everything happens for a reason” approach.  What I was doing was never my passion, it wasn’t a “great fit” for me, but still good experience and I learned a lot from it, ALWAYS take something away from EVERY experience!

I love being home, really cooking again, having time to clean, being emotionally available for my kids, enjoying walks with the dogs and just taking time to breathe and starting this new chapter in my life.

I’m not quite sure what I’m going to do next or what the future will bring, but I’m kind of excited about the possibilities.

My new daily mantra has become this:

“keep trying, keep believing, be happy, don’t get discouraged, things will work out” – Gordon B Hinckley.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Libra, stuck at a fork in the road

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I have a job which I like, but do not love.
Growing up I hated math.
Now that’s a big part of what I do all day.
My job is very solitary.
I am a people person.
Growing up I wanted to be a nurse, a vet. I am neither.
I like to help people, make them smile and make a difference.
I don’t feel that I am doing any of these things currently.
I have found a job that I know I’d be good at.
The job involves conducting fitness tests, and assessments, scheduling facility programs and staff, design, develop and deliver social/recreational programs to the elderly and disabled.
This I know would come with its own challenges.
I love to learn
This job requires continuous learning, to the well-being of others and myself,
My job  requires neither.
This job would require being on call, weekend and night work.
The girls are getting older and don’t need me around as much as they used to.
I work Monday to Friday 830 – 3 most days.
The pay would be around the same.
I would eventually have full benefits and job security.
I have neither now.
At the end of the day I think I would happier.
Now I come home most days feeling taken advantage of,underappreciated and defeated.
I have a funny feeling as I tap at the keys on my keyboard that I am answering my own questions…..

I am a Libra, who can be very indecisive weighing things back and forth back and forth while standing still in the middle unable to move.
I have been down the hall from deaths door twice and there is a great potential to be there again, I have learned to appreciate all that’s around me and to appreciate each day, to be happy, I find myself often unable to feel this way.
I treat others with kindness and respect and expect and deserve the same.
I need to make some changes in the best interests of my family and myself.
Life is too short and too precious to be wasted, it was not my time to go through that dark door not just once but twice, why am I wasting this gift?

≈Laugh loudly, Love generously, Care deeply, Speak kindly≈

TueSdays TotaLLy UseFull inFormATion for March 5

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March 5 is the 64th day of the year (65th in leap years) in the Gregorian calendar. There are 301 days remaining until the end of the year

March 5 is … Multiple Personalities Day

It is exactly 8 months until my 45th birthday…ahhhhhhhhhh

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Today Forbes reveals the list of the world wealthiest people and as usual I’m not on it!!

A funny joke for this 5 day of March 😀

The family of bears posing for their family portrait experienced a true Kodiak moment. 😀
Admit it that made you smile!

and a thought or two

Indoors or out, no one relaxes in March, that month of wind and taxes, the wind
will presently disappear, the taxes last us all the year.  ~Ogden Nash

Happy Tuesday!

Laugh loudly, Love generously, Care deeply, Speak kindly

On a cold February night

She’d gone to bed early with her two young daughters all three of them tucked in and cozy.  They lived in an old home that became very very cold in the winter.  It was a terribly cold night in February. She just happened to wake up to hear an odd sound and saw an orange glow coming from the side of the bed, she lifted her head only to see flames shooting out of the electrical outlet.  She only had time to yell her husband’s name and started to  grab her sleeping children from their sleep.  The flames quickly engulfed the top of the bed with the flames spreading so quickly that her oldest daughter was scooped up by her father just as the flames were singeing her beautiful blonde locks. She had never seen fire move so quickly it had totally taken over the bed the three had been in within seconds.

They had no time to think as they ran down the stairs and out into the frigid night air.  They’d called their dogs to the safety of the now warming vehicle , the fire department had been called and had arrived just minutes later but had felt like hours.

They sat on the side of the road watching helplessly from their vehicle, as the firefighters try in vain to put the fire out and save their home.

They lost almost everything that night, except each other and the love of their family , friends and community all of whom gathered up donations of money, clothing, toiletries and books and toys for the girls along with much-needed emotional support.

There had been three volunteer Fire Departments dispatched that night, the firefighters care, concern and professionalism went beyond trying to save the family’s home, for all they did that night and the days to come she would be forever grateful.